Bfn

It was a Big Fat Negative this month! I cant say I'm totally fine with it, but i knew it was a possibility and ive been trying for 3 years and 9 months so I guess I'm getting used to negatives by now. Better luck next time. As soon as this cycle starts, i will try again and again and again untill i have a baby in my arms. Thank you for your support once again. The 20 of you who asked me to add you on my mailing list is the ones i really know you care. Thank you so much for thinking of me xxxx

The dreaded Two-week-wait!

Im in the dreaded 2ww. Ive been doing this for 3 years and 8 months, so after a while you start to lose hope of getting a BFP, but hey, lets hope for the best! So the one follie didn't grow even a millimeter past 13mm when we went back to the FS, but the other one grew nicely to 20mm, so that was awesome! They gave me an Ovidrel injection to release the egg so we knew the exact time of ovulation and got to sort our business accordingly ;) Im not feeling too well- getting a bit of side effects due to all the hormones being injected into me but at least i know its a good thing. I also felt stabbing pains today in my right ovary (the one that didnt grow any) so im hoping it actually caught up and that i still have double the chances of getting knocked up this month!

Now they cant mess around any more untill the end of this cycle, so theres no way of knowing how the follies are doing... all we can do is hope and pray untill the 28th when my blood test is due!

Oh and by the way, the acronyms are on the blog itself, so if you read this via your email, you might not know a single thing of what i just said. And also some people asked about posts they made and wasnt sure if i get them- if you reply to the mail, i get it, but only when i log into the mailing list.  If you reply on the blog itself, i get it instantly via emial! Thanx once again for your support, it means the world to me! Love and kisses xoxoxoxox

On top of the world!

I am so on top of the world right now cause i made 2 follies :) They are only 13mm (they have to get to 20mm)and growing too slow, so i got 2 menopur injections to help them grow a bit, but i dont care, it feels like i can do anything right now he he he!! I am SO chaffed at my awesome ovaries!!!

So you know what this means?? If both of them continue to grow nicely we might end up with double trouble ;) i wont mind honestly, if it takes this long to get one, two will be even better. Either way i have double the chance this month to get pregnant even if only one gets fertilised! But dont get your hopes up too much, theres still lots to do and many women do this and still dont get pregnant. So, hope, but not too much ;)

Hsg test

So i went for the HSG and again, not much fun! It was really sore when they injected the dye but all is well now and i got good news, my tubes are open yaaay!!! So, one step forward and tomorrow they are doing a follicle scan to see if i got a nice big growing follicle with the Femara this month and to tell me when i will ovulate. Hold your thumbs!

Vitalab appointment today

I had another appointment at Vitalab today. I am only in the beginning of this whole thing and I can already say I hate this! I went there at 7 this morning and gave all my blood (i dont think i have any left ;) for a million blood tests and then i went for a scan to see if everything is ready for this cycle. The doc prescribed Femara- a drug used for the induction of ovulation. It also produces a better quality egg, so fingers crossed! This cycle is also gonna cost us a million Rand (okey not really) cause i have to go for regular scans to monitor ovulation to make sure everything is perfect at the right time.

At times today, i felt like an object, not a person! Theres no privacy around there whatsoever and theres a million (okey a little less) couples in the waiting room going through the same thing. I dont even want to tell the whole story, but i can tell you, its not a pleasant experience, and an emotional one with it! This is not how i imagined to be making my baby in a million years :(

So my next scan is next week on 7 Dec, after i took 5 days supply of Femara and i also have a booking next week on the 6th Dec for an HSG. Here is an explanation of the scan that i found on the internet:

 A hysterosalpingogram (HSG) is an X-ray test that looks at the inside of the uterus and fallopian tubes and the area around them. During a hysterosalpingogram, a dye (contrast material) is put through a thin tube that is put through the vagina and into the uterus. Because the uterus and the fallopian tubes are hooked together, the dye will flow into the fallopian tubes. Pictures are taken using a steady beam of X-ray (fluoroscopy) as the dye passes through the uterus and fallopian tubes. The pictures can show problems such as an injury or abnormal structure of the uterus or fallopian tubes, or a blockage that would prevent an egg moving through a fallopian tube to the uterus. A blockage also could prevent sperm from moving into a fallopian tube and joining (fertilizing) an egg. A hysterosalpingogram also may find problems on the inside of the uterus that prevent a fertilized egg from attaching (implanting) to the uterine wall.


So more invasive tests to be done, but thats absolutely necessary to find out if there is anything else keeping me from having my own bundle of joy!  Lets hope and pray that both my tubes are healthy and open!

Apart from this, im still doing acupuncture every week to stimulate ovulation and I'm on green smoothies that is not only good for me, but actually also very tasty! Thanx again for all your prayers and messages, i really appreciate it and absolutely need it. Until next week!

A bit too much...

You know your TTC journey becomes a bit too much when you see babies or baby things everywhere and in everything! So i was at a wedding yesterday and someone walked past me with a bread plate with a teeny weeny tiny baby on it!!! I had to do a double take and walk up to the bread plate to see that it was, in fact, a bread ((Blush))  You're probably thinking "okey, thats a bit weird, well never mind, cause im thinking it too, he he!

So some of you are still wondering whats up... where are we with dr's appointments etc... You just didnt see the post... duh!
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Thanx again for your prayers, it means the world to me xx

Fertility Specialist Appointment 15 November

Two days ago I went for my very first appointment with my Fertility Specialist. I was very nervous the whole week before i went, but it turned out to be quite fine. I did however realise how much time i wasted with my gynae that (now i realise) doesn't know much about fertility, but pretended to know a lot.

Dr Volschenk (the fertility specialist) confirmed that i do have poly cystic ovary syndrome and that i do not ovulate on a regular basis. This makes conception extremely difficult, as even a healthy couple only has a 20% chance of conceiving each month.

I did blood tests on the first day and a post coital test on the second day, to see if I have a hostile environment for the swimmers, which turned out really good. My ph is very good and all the swimmers survived. What an amazing experience to see them on a screen in real life as clear as daylight! I almost cried... you cant deny God's existence after seeing something like that! Dr V also said that it isn't necessary to do a laparoscopy (where they make a cut at my abdomen to see if i have endometriosis) because if my ph is good, it is highly unlikely to be endometriosis. I am very glad about that one, because I hate to do un-necessary operations! DrV said the swimmers are as fit as a bull (which made Johan smile from ear to ear) and that there are A LOT of them :)

So for now, i have to wait another 2 weeks, then more tests will follow. They will do some more blood tests, and also a test to see if my tubes are open for the swimmers to get through.

Hope you're all doing well and have a great end of 2010!